days were endless when we were kids.
now friday creeps up like it's nothing!
and every monday i say, "it's already trash day again?!"
the notion of time is so perplexing.
i remember parts of my young childhood so clearly.
a heck of a lot more clearly than my youthful twenties! but that's probably okay...
when i fear that i may forget something as time flies by and increases the separation between me and the person or event, i learn to rely on the feeling.
grandma lucille reminds me of silky shirts, great snuggly, silky hugs, and a certain perfume i cannot describe, but my nose can still define. and her sweet little old lady voice cracking little jokes.
nana yo...watching her cursive handwriting, putting on her red lipstick, chewing gum, fur coats, perfect nails, soft, dewy skin, aftereight mints on the table, the smell of her clean and organized house, the sweet smell of her perfume... her presence... i used to stare at her a lot!
i remember throwing taly on the boob for the first time and i do remember that feeling. that inner dialogue of "just go for it" and then "yeah, she's suckling!"
i still can remember when she was 9 weeks old and it was her 9 week birthday and my mom and i had her on the bed and surrounded her with all her little animal friends and we sang her happy birthday! that was the best!
my mother, how i remember so much and i hope i will never forget! too many to mention, but i will mention i can still hear her sneeze, her fabulous laugh and i can still feel her holding my hand!!!
with ciro, i remember that feeling of intense love that made me so certain of being with him. and yes, that intense love is still there. (he doesn't read my blogs but i better make him read this one!)
my father... i remember driving in his cadillac and hearing 70s songs. and one summer he let us listen to the 8 track of steve martin and it was really dirty but really funny and we would all be laughing really hard! he surprised me with a canopy bed when i was little and somehow i found out, but i still had to act surprised. but i was really really excited! and i remember him taking us to a lot of bookstores and parks and making us pork chops and applesauce!
okay, that's enough. taly is begging me to come upstairs and watch the rest of grease! she loves that movie.
xo
